she died and then what?

looks like some family feud is boiling up somewhere. aah fuck them. im gonna lay back eat ben & jerry chocolate fudge brownie ice cream and watch the nanny!

good nite good people!

kaaaaa-ching

i think its already about a month that i have been out of job which means out of money which sucks ): wouldnt it be nice if money were to grow on trees? wishful thinking. gah!

apart of it i have been losing a friend as well, its been months, i just could not bring myself to call or text. and finally today message via facebook. after a few messages we both ask if we would want to continue the silent treatment or kiss and make up? (well technically i ask the question) the reply was not as what i anticipated it to be 'i gus' it was neither a yes nor a no which is fucking irritating. make up your mind if you want to or if you don't. of course i'm a little bit disappointed but we both know the situation that we're both in. its not like we're in school still, we're both working adult. we both have our lives to live, other people to love, things to do. things that sometimes are not 'suitable' for each other.

but we're still are there for each other. after all those years, repeat phase of this 'silent treatment' we still manage to kill time for each other. why the sudden urge to quit? i know that soon you will be embarking on a new life, perhaps it is easier to just demolish me because i come unattached and flamboyant that you think maybe i cannot fit into your lifestyle anymore.

i know you always have a soft spot for me, but perhaps you are more worried of your later new future that you may not have the time nor the energy for me. i don't say mean things for you but i also don't wish you well. but the reality is that all good thing will one day come rumbling down. and when that day comes i will just say a silent prayer for you and watch you from afar.

shut your mouth bitch

it was not at all the regular monday or even a blue monday. mom cat-fight yes my mom with her all time rival next door (at her shop that is) honestly that acid mouth bitch deserve it big time. well lets not get into it shall we? i am currently watching the proposal for the umpteenth time i lost count the last time i watch it.

it is not ryan reynolds that keep me going back. its the settings that i am always fond of. nice office full of mac desk top, starbucks coffee and the city itself. new york city baby! not to mention alaska too. i have never been a fan of cold weather but there is something about alaska. not to mention Ms Tate wardrobe. sleek skirt suits, prada bags and christian laboutin killer heels and that birkin bag (in which Mrs Jumali stash away in her room so i will not use it. Mommys can be so cruel. Ok back to reality now i have now continue to run. i kinda enjoy that one hour of painful breathing, that i feel like my feet gonna pop out and i cannot walk another another inch.the wet sweat, me not looking my finest, but i just ran.

i enjoy being with myself. that one hour of no interrupt, no phone call no email no text message nothing, just me and my sweat and loud music to keep me company. i like it! run shrek run!

and thank you eka for the cute green paul frank silicone cover for my precious bb! love it!

well have a good night rest good people!

another sunday afternoon

mom actually let me slept through the morning and the afternoon. i woke up promptly at 3 in the afternoon. usually the latest scream will be at 10 or if not at 11. LATEST. i lied of course saying that a cat was meowing outside my bedroom window in the wee hours in the morning (there is really a cat outside my window. she has been peeing on my mom's plant since last week, she caught the cat doing it a few days ago) mom roll her eyes in acknowledging the reason.

do nothing much the 3 of us. dad watch 2012 again cos he slept through it in the movies (and i paid for the tickets!) watch a lot of tv today including mom. surprising.

well since now i am no longer employed, i got to enjoy sleeping late and waking up late. lately i like the word late. heh.

jah killed my evening confessing that she had already watch new moon with her sister and brother in law last night. thank you jah.

well good night good people will update real soon!

raindrops on my window

is not like you cant live without me

whatever. you have no idea how much it mean to me. not talking to each other nor seeing each other in our thing. that how we survived. that what makes us special. that what makes us me and you. and if you cant seem to see past that that then maybe yes we should call it quits. there is more to life then love alone. we should also embrace our friends who have really been there for us. not just your boyfriend (whom have once cheated on you!) god knows that he will cheat on you again. im not asking for mean things to happen to you. its just how the universe works. no one ever has the perfect everything.

so lets calls it quits.
flush down all the memory
the laughter
the tears
the love
the friendship
you
me

the end

waste of a very small space

dear evil fairy dusts,

wtf? seriously, why not you pack up your dirty little bag, your stupid red passport and just go back home. where you truly belong. complaint and complaint like you truly understand the meaning of service. fuck you. you dont even get an inch of what is given to you when you are here. it is already so hot and humid in this tiny space, and uncivilised people came,then you demanding a fuck up tip-top service that is the first place you dont even deserve. asking the 'top people' to do 'something' about the service that we give up. oii this is not some fuck-up communist county that is one sided (it is where you came from) stupid mother fucker. go home. we don't need you here.